it is 4am

this is insane
i can't sleep unless i self medicate
benedryl of course
but still i was hoping i was tired enough
was so exhausted
but no, i got 3 hours
and my body thinks it is time to get up
i just know i will be out of it by 9am
which is when my review session starts
but i laid in bed for an hour just now
and that is just frustrating
with so many things to do
i don't have the patience to wait for my body to fall asleep
i wish i could just press a button
or i wish hazel was here and i could be feeding her instead of just feeling like my body can't control itself
other than that
i am feeling pretty good
brandon is so good to me
i just wish i could sleep like he does
out like a rock
that is all, i'm going to study
at least be productive if i am going to be awake
-laura